Oh alright then I will. These boys are so demanding AND judgmental, and don’t they know its rude to point?!! Whatever. If any poor deluded souls still following my blog are still holding out for regular posts, then I’m going to have to shatter their illusions and inform them that I didn’t fall off the edge of the planet for the last three (or is it four now?!) weeks; I have not been backpacking or even jetting around the globe, feeding the homeless, working hard at Uni or doing anything remotely useful with my life…..and I have not been writing.
Lots of people keep telling me “you should be writing” and I’m sure they think they are helping and encouraging me, but it really beggers the question, “writing what?!!!” My blog? A book? Magazine articles? in-depth reportage political journalism (bah ha ha ha, now THAT would be ludicrous); should I be tweeting on Twitsville more? Less verbage more pithy, witty two liners? Poems, Letters, shopping lists, facebook comments, cake recipes, lists of DIY jobs for the big fella…..WHAT? give us a bloody clue. Someone back home in the UK, whose opinion I value more than she will ever realise, told me very recently that…. I should be writing, which has prompted……well, finally getting around to writing another blog post actually.
Honestly, this final semester has just been the pits; I’m coming to the end of my degree and still have no direction for the rest of my life. I’ve got frozen shoulder from carrying all those stupid books last ‘five-courses-at-once-because-I’ve-lost-my-mind’ semester (and no Jess, I am NOT posting that photo of my Angel Wing surgical strappings; it pushed all my back fat under my armpits and just reminds me that that was the week when ‘Physio Pete’ was there and I’d thought I was looking my best….), and inexplicably, I’ve just lost interest completely in academia. Maybe everyone goes through this stage, whatever age they are when they do a degree?
I have variously been; faffing about on the beach –
And, re-reading WWAD? (because I’m still holding out on the vain hope that at some point I will be dignified, generous, glamorous, humble and less idiotic – but don’t hold your breath), and I’ve also been spending way too much time on my on-line shopping addiction.
Result: I almost failed an essay this semester for the first time in my degree after having a pretty good run of sixes and sevens and making it to the Deans Commendation list every semester so far…….actually then, I should be THINKING and writing more….apparently.
Maybe I’ll still do Honours, maybe I’ll do a post grad certificate in writing/editing/publishing……maybe, maybe, maybe…..just waiting for some sort of sign from the Universe to get me back on track. Note to Universe: I’m 43 and would appreciate a little more urgency and less ambiguity, I really don’t want to get to the end and find a very disappointing apology like in Hitch Hikers Guide thanks.
I’m incredibly lucky to actually know a few people who have real life Angel Wings and not fake tape ones … don’t panic!! I’m speaking figuratively and I’m not about to go all new age hippie weirdo on you. I am still your down to earth ‘almost’ normal Nanna – what I mean is, and for example, my friend Heather does THIS with her life (see below youtube clip; Daniel Craig is an added, but I would have to say, much deserved perk), and when you watch it, and please, just watch at least the first few minutes, you’ll understand why it’s hard to feel like there is anything worthy about what I do in comparison.
Or maybe that’s the point Universe? If I hadn’t written this post you might not have come across the phenomenally life changing and inspiring work that ORBIS do; Their unique ‘day job’ is on a DC10 airplane that has an eye hospital on board, they can land virtually anywhere in the world and operate YES!!! REALLY!!! – don’t just take my word for it, go and have a look for yourself. Maybe I SHOULD be writing after all?